Hanu

should be about a year now...
yah i kinda remember..
its about this time last year when she left our house..
guess 4 1/2 years being together isn't that easy to forget... haha..

time flies so fast..
it just seems yesterday..
i'd wake up with my arms aching..
as she crawls up in my shoulders fast asleep..
i'd set my alarm 30mins before id really get up
so i could have time to look at her sweet sleeping smile..
my arms can get sore everyday..
but i can never think of any place my arms could be
at those times of the day..

she was my princess..
she was my everything.. [maybe still is?.. haha ]

there were times i work night shifts..
but when i get home early in the morning
i'd make sure she has her breakfast ready.
and at times her lunch as well..
before i leave in the evening,
she'll just be eating her dinner when she arrives..

no need to do the laundry
coz ever since we have it washed elsewhere..
we argue sometimes about the dishes though.. haha
she can say she also cleans the house..
but i clean it most of the times.. [wanna argue about it? haha ]

she was smart, sweet, caring and thoughtful..
being around her completes me...
we can just sit in a starry night..
be in each other's arms whole night..
and care less about the world..

we love to eat..
we try different kind of dishes..
but nothing beats pizza hut for us.. haha
she loves cheeze... stuff crust and all that..
we'd compromise to get what we want..
when she gets to make her cheese stuf crust..
i'd get the meat lovers part..
aside from the take outs
and the dine in's sometimes twice a week
spendin about a thousand bucks each time
coz we eat a lot.. haha
we cant seem to get enough of it..

we love to play MMORPG..
actually, she was the one who introduced me to it...
forced me to play it.. haha
got me hooked into it..
that until now im still addicted to it...
believe it or not..
we spent more than a year just bumm'n around..
playing MU after her graduation.. haha..
played almot 24/7, handled a faction,
even earned a lot from it.. haha :)

she also got me into anime..
belive me, i was already in college
and i've never even known about it...
now im still loooking forward
to the coming episodes of bleach, naruto and others..
also looking for new anime series to watch.
she draws.. i love her drawings..
made me draw too..

i never wanted her to work after her graduation..
kinda gettin more than enough already for us..
but she isn't that type..
she'd never agree to just stay home..
we even stayd at the same company at one point..

like the usual couple..
we've had our ups and downs..
been here, done that, went there...
and of course..
the question that youve been wanting to ask...
what happened?

dont worry coz even till noweven i havent figured that out too.. hehe
guess it was me..
maybe i wasnt good enough for her..
maybe i was foolin around too much..
she got into a relationshipwith her office lockermate..
i remembered she told me oncetheir number lock code's 143..

i didnt ralize untili found her diary
and shealready got her eyes on him..
she said it was nothin
she just like him and they werent together or something..
i should have known better..

we made a promise to each other when we started
that if when this thing happens,its the end of everything..
it should be like that but..
i was lost there at that moment..
didnt know what to feel..
didnt know how to react..
guess i havent really ever thought about it.

i had a feeling it wasnt serious with them..
i couldnt believe she'd lose what we have
for more than 4 years in just a couple of months..
they said the guy was a nobody..
broken english.. good for nothing.. really dumb..
called themselves like they were kim and gerald..
i swear i laughed my stomach out when i heard it..

she was a cool, strong willed..
she was the brains of her whole school..
we argue diggin our brains out of each other..
nobody beats the two of us when we are on our game.

i just dont know what really happened..
got me laughing and angry at the same time.
our friends told me to give her a chance..
i wasnt even sure i could give her up..
so we stil got together...
but day by day .. we fell apart..
they officially became together..
we were stil under one roof..
she was stil beside me in our bed..
then she said it was already inappropirate..
so she packed her bag.. and left.

i know i should be long over these..
but she never took with her all her things..
she just brought with her like a bag when she left
and lived with her friend..
95% of her stuff's stil in our house..
maybe she just wants me to think or change something..
or maybe im just thnking too much..
maybe she wants to leave all memories behind..
maybe i just dont wanna belive that she has left..
maybe.. just maybe..

i still miss her... a lot.
all i can hope is for her to be doing okay.
im writing all these down here..
coz from these point on..
i wanna leave things behind..
but i dont wanna forget.
she's been so special.
so im keeping all the memories and feelings here.
right here.

Helping Tatay Felix...

we had our training outside a tall tower in makati..
our schedule runs through the evening..
and while we have our jackets on
an old vendor sits outside our building..
freezing in the cold night..
holding on to a couple of cigarettes and candies for sale..

there were other vendors nearer in front of our building..
but we'd take a hike and go to his place to
get our cigarettes and hear his stories..
at times we bring him food to cover for the night..

at his age, he should be resting at 3 in the morning..
but his kids left them...
his wife cant walk..
to make it worse..
the security guards would shove him away from the building
or asks for his stuff that's he's sellin for free...
*horrible people* >.<

but we would only stay in that building for a few weeks..
so before we left to transfer to another location
our batch mates decided to chip in and help tatay felix..
accumulated about 3-5k [damn we're rich.. haha] :)
and prepared a surprise for tatay felix..

at a very hot afternoon,
we bought rice, groceries, necessities and
stuff for them to sell and help start off..
we called him to meet us..
you can imagine how surprised he was with our gifts..
a much memorable look and a smile of infinite gratefulness..

we brought it to his house where we met his wife..
he said "he'd never know how he would be able to repay us"
bust simply seeing them smile and take off some of the
problems their carrying in their shoulders
is more than enough..

before we said our goodbye's
we gave our number's just in case of emergencies..

hopefully his doin well today.
special thanks to aimee, nikkie, rob, issey, and mommy abbie
and to all of those who contributed, batch 2 HSBC M2 UK-CTS.

time..

Granado Espada

anybody addicted to MMORPG (Massively Multiuser Online Role Playing Game)?..
like Ragnarok, MU, RF, RAN, etc...

well, i used to... and stil am.. haha :)
played a bit of Ragna, RF, Ran, also spent a few years MU..
now its GE.. or Granado Espada...

what's addicting to these games is that you create you ownself in
a new world while playing.. interacting with other players around the globe..
you get to meet different kinds of people while making your characters stronger..
it's like a community inside.. you buy and sell items, you save up to become rich..
your characters grow.. well, most of the times the appearance does not change
but they can definitely become stronger and you would be able to dress them up
with different costumes... there are games where you even go to school, or even get married..
and the best part is.. you get hurt, you die.. but be resucitated..
so you can live over and over again.. haha :)
it's fun and addicting.. it's a game that can never be ending..
it may take up your time.. but it's definitely worth it..

well of course nothing lasts forever...
you may outgrow the fun in it after a few months..
but there would surely be another game worth your time...
after getting bored with the previous games i played..
i started searchin for another interesting MMORPG..
took me a few months, then i found GE...
for those into MMORPG.. try Granado Espada..
with MMORPG, you only usually get to control once character..
but with GE, you get to control three of them..
difficult?? nah!!.. you've got to try it and enjoy...
aside from the basic characters that you'd level up..
you also got the option of getting to lvl up lots of RNPC..
its really cool and fun..

perhaps you're guessin' i'm affiliated or gettin paid for
advertising GE.. haha.. i wish.. :)
i just have time to spare right now to write these stuff..
and also i'd like to invite people to join me in the adventure...
with its new update of characters in bikini costumes..
it's definitely a "must play" game... haha ..

when you decide to play...
il try to help you to start out as much as i can..
just make sure you're in our Caravaggio server..
look for me in-game..
family name: Celestials and †Fervor†
faction: Eclipse

here's the link if you need more info about the game:
http://ge.iahgames.com/splash/splash.html
http://ge.iahgames.com/en/

Han, Chae Young...

have you ever been into someone that you cant just get enough of him/her..
maybe you can call it crush.. infatuation.. obsession? haha...
love?.. haha.. or maybe just being crazy? haha..
whatever you call it..
the feeling just fills you up when you see the person...
seems the person just dont get tired running through your mind..
you wanna see him/her every passing second..

well i do...
the feeling's so great but unfortunately she's a tv actress...
i dont know how it exactly happened..
all i can remember is i was so bored one time
that i decided to watch a series in crunchyroll...
i usually watch chinese and korean martial arts movies there
but ive wanted something lighter and i saw a comment on
a "must see" korean series called Delightful Chunyang or Sassy Girl Chunhyang
it was really a very funny comedy love story..
and i guess thats where i fell in love with its main actress.. Han, Chae Young...
fell in love? haha.. pardon my expression..

she was so simple, funny, cute and really very preety..
i found myself browsin for more of her movies.. profile, and also pics from the website..
crazy isnt it? haha...
ive never been too infatuated to a tv character before..
i guess there's always a first time for everything... haha
it feels good even though at the back of your mind..
you damn know may never even see the person in real life..
the obsession really went for a couple of days..
cant believe i'll ever be to a situation like this..
but its really a good and fun experience...

but of course, like any other feelings..
time fades away everything..
and so just before id really get over it..
i'd wanna put it here so that i could remember the feelings sometimes..
and how crazy ive been... haha

here's something to remember her,,
HAN CHAE YOUNG (Han Chae Yeong)
Born: September 13, 1980
Family: married
Height: 172 cm (5' 8")
School: Dongkuk University
TV dramas: Fireworks-MBC (Nara); Only You; Sassy Girl Chunhyang (Chunhyang);
Beijing My Love (Yeon-sook); Affection (Hae-mi); Autumn Story (Shin-ae)

teaching koreans...

that was the first job i took..

while studying.. i got a part time job teaching english to koreans..
and that's what i did for about 3 years..

you'll be surprised to know how wonderful their culture is..
how similar at the same time different on how they live their lives compared to us...
isn't it wonderful to know more about other people's culture and how they live..
have you ever wondered how other people from other countries live their lives?..
after knowing them.. i'm now more curious on how people from different countries also live.
reading them from books has a huge.. very huge difference than being with them..
i may not have been living in their country but seeing how they live as a community
and doing things with them was quite an experience.

i used to think that filipino's are the most respectful people because of the "po" and "opo"
and how we treat our elderly people..
but wait til you meet them..

let's just say i've never been given so much respect before until i've met them..
well let's just say part of it was because i was their teacher..
but it was amazing.. i don't thnk teacher's here in the phils would be given that much respect..
from the young to the old... they give you utmost respect..
they hold the wine to pour your cup with both of their hands to show respect..
even the old people would do that for you..
they bow to you, they use polite languages often,
they make sure they never offend you in any way..
their generous and shower you with gifts to show
their appreciation...
you'd feel like a "king" with the respect they would give you.
i'm sure most of us have watched one or two korean movies or tv series
you'll see and learn how much they differ from us.

i'm not saying they have a better culture than us..
nothing perfect, we all have our ups and downs..
i'm showing how different and interesting to know how other culture's are.

to all my korean students and friends..
thank you for sharing such a wonderful experience :)

regards to tasha, jin, mishan and jini...
(if anybody knows or can find me Ms. Koo,Kyung Im, please let me know, thanks)

isko ng UP..

isa akong "isko" ng unibersidad ng pilipinas...

should i be proud of it?
lets just say i was fortunate to have been part of it...

what does it mean to be an "isko"?
should i have joined the rallies?
was there something for to me to fulfill?..

what should have i expected?
questions.. questions.. questions...
but what i know an i'm sure of is this..

it was a whole new environment..
the place itself was amazing..
it's like a whole community inside campus..
everything you need would be there...

the huge surroundings has been refreshing..
the trees, green grass, the smell of the flowers..
you can camp out, walk, jog, picnic as much as u want..

the buildings and classrooms may not have been air-conditioned..
but it's lets just say.. college like.
or else how would u be able to smoke inside the classroom. haha :)

"variety".. thats the word..
i'd say UP has the most number of kinds of people...
different people from all kinds of lifestyle and culture
i've met a few when i joined our organization UP Lingua Franca(for english majors)
and UP Vanguard(for ROTC officers)

i got my freedom.. my ups and downs..
the joys and hurricanes of my life that i would never forget..
dito sa loob ng Unibersidad ng Pilipinas.

and what does it mean to be isko?
i'd say.. experiencing all of these..
being here and there...
sa loob ng unbersidad ng pilipinas..
that what makes you an "isko"..